Letters to The Kids

Don't you have days where you get random thoughts which you wish you could discuss it but when you wait, it disappears or you simply lose the mood? I often have a lot of things to say to my kids but they wouldn't understand it now (I tried to tell Munchkin why she shouldn't go around telling people "Mama got 'pampers' stuck to underwear"). So for not wanting to forget the things I want to say, I resorted to penning it down. Partially inspired by Grey's Anatomy where Mere gets to read the diaries of her deceased mother.

I'm not sure if my kids will eventually read it but at the moment, at least it serves as a backup. I don't know either if my handwriting is legible enough though. And I have not quite decided when will be the best age to hand over. For all I know, I might re-read it in time to come then change my mind about giving it to them. But one thing good about this is (this will come off a bit morbid), juuuust in case if I don't live long enough (ya Allah, jauhkanlah) at least it has a purpose in partially getting my message across. BUT that's not the real reason. The real reason is, it's monologue. If certain issues come off naggy, I don't get a "SHUT THE Ffff UPPP, ALREADY!!!". Sure they can just throw it off to a dusty corner and leave it infested with silverfish and roach's eggs.. BUT we mothers, are well-equipped with the power of delusion so I've decided to just use that for now.